“Never say never”, is a phrase that has a much deeper meaning in my life than ever before. A few years ago I met my spouse, fell in love, got married, had children and swore, “Never again will I seek anything in my life ever”. Boy, was I wrong! Through the years, life rolled on with ups and downs and I began to feel a void. I began to search. Search for answers and often, the intensity of such a search will yield some pretty quick results. And it happened to me.
We met two years ago. It was brief. It happened in a hotel. We were together for four days. It was my first experience with that kind of joy. And life changed. Dramatically changed. I knew in my heart there was a shift. And then I came back to my real life – work, home, children, challenges etc. But those four days were memorable. I yearned for more. A few months later it happened again and then a year later again. The sporadic meetings intensified in between. Daytime was spent dreaming of midnight rendezvous. Typically it was around the 2 – 3 am that we would connect. There was a lot of deep breathing that would happen. The house was silent. Everyone was in a slumber. And no one suspected anything. The meetings over a period in time became regular and now are a daily occurrence and much of the family, friends and colleagues are seeing that shift – loads of laughter and giggles, conscious efforts at spending time with family, a glow on the face, a sudden appreciation for littlest things and a very different outlook to life. Very YOLO attitude. A spousal confrontation is right around the corner. My love for sleep has diminished dramatically. On the contrary, an inner alarm wakes me up around 2-3 am.
From whatever is happening on a daily basis, I know this is going to intensify. I am consumed by it already. And I have friends who have begun asking me questions specific to the issue. The ones that know me well get a decent daily download of my post midnight experience and the others on the periphery are watching to see where this will lead. History has it that anyone who has gone down this path has never really returned to their original life. And yes, he has a name. A powerful one. I know that he is the only one that can make my dreams come true and they have been coming true too. His name is “pineal gland”. :). I meet him in my everyday meditations during the beautiful wee hours of the morning. Life is bliss.
My first experience with the pineal gland happened when I went for a meditation conference two years ago. Although I loved it, I wasn’t regular at it. But the subsequent two conferences put me in a very different frame of mind and now my post midnight rendezvous with the pineal gland is the highlight of any given night. 🙂
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